Monday, September 8, 2014

Where I am

I've had a few ask where I've gone... Some of you may not have noticed that I've been gone;-) That's okay.
I had a miscarriage a year ago that affected me far deeper than I thought it ever would. I got to see it's sweet little heart beating at 7 weeks and then went back at 9 weeks only to find out it had died shortly after my previous appointment. It took 5 weeks in all for my body to finally let go of it from the time it died and the emotional roller coaster I felt as I lost it was not easy.
I am a Christian. And when I say I'm a Christian then I mean I have asked The Lord into my heart, to save me from my sins and to help me walk with Him every day that I live. Because of that then I believe that I have my fourth son or daughter living in heaven now. Jesus was the first face my little one ever saw! One day I will meet our baby in heaven. What an amazing thought, though it breaks my heart that I never got to meet him or her here on earth.
I am so thankful for the comfort that The Lord gives!

I got pregnant again in late October and we welcomed our 4th son (6th baby. I had another miscarriage in 2010) into the world on July 28th, 2014.
I am realizing how quickly time is going by. How short our time is to raise these boys and show them what it means to love The Lord with all their heart, soul and mind.
 So I stopped. I stopped blogging, I stopped painting, I stopped doing all these things that were taking time away from my boys.
 I'm not saying it's forever. But right now this is where The Lord wants me. 
Holding my children, loving my children and hopefully someday when they are grown and moving on then I will be able to look back and know that even though we didn't do everything perfect, we did the best that we could.

11 comments:

Lois Hudson said...

I appreciate this Jill...Keep on in the Lord raising your sweet boys and spending as much time as you can with them. Sometimes it's hard to put aside the "fun" things we want to do. Hope your week is going well!

redmetalroof said...

I will miss reading your witty blog, but love your way of prioritizing! What can be more important in life than guiding our children to learn about and trust in our great God? Now quit reading this and go give those cute boys kisses from their aunt!

Cassie @ Primitive & Proper said...

wishing you and your babies all the best. XOXO

Lori said...

What a super sweet post. Praying for grace and your sweet family. God is good.... all the time. I don't blog half as much since my grands have come into our lives. Too much fun to play!

Elizabeth BlueClearSky said...

Wishing you all the best! Enjoy those sweet little ones as the time does fly by.

Lana M. said...

I had noticed you weren't blogging and missed it. But, you are totally doing the right thing by focusing on those four gifts you've been given! Have a great day!

Kathie Truitt said...

Been there, done that sweet girl. I'm so sorry for your losses and so very happy for your new beautiful baby. I love this picture of your boys, too. I too, moved to Texas from Virginia and am so loving it!

Kathie Truitt said...

Been there, done that sweet girl. I'm so sorry for your losses and so very happy for your new beautiful baby. I love this picture of your boys, too. I too, moved to Texas from Virginia and am so loving it!

Helen Keyes said...

Your children are lovely. It helps you to ease out the pain you’ve gained for the past events. Pray to God for more comfort.

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Helen Keyes said...

Your children are lovely. It helps you to ease out the pain you’ve gained for the past events. Pray to God for more comfort.

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