I had a miscarriage a year ago that affected me far deeper than I thought it ever would. I got to see it's sweet little heart beating at 7 weeks and then went back at 9 weeks only to find out it had died shortly after my previous appointment. It took 5 weeks in all for my body to finally let go of it from the time it died and the emotional roller coaster I felt as I lost it was not easy.
I am a Christian. And when I say I'm a Christian then I mean I have asked The Lord into my heart, to save me from my sins and to help me walk with Him every day that I live. Because of that then I believe that I have my fourth son or daughter living in heaven now. Jesus was the first face my little one ever saw! One day I will meet our baby in heaven. What an amazing thought, though it breaks my heart that I never got to meet him or her here on earth.
I am so thankful for the comfort that The Lord gives!
I got pregnant again in late October and we welcomed our 4th son (6th baby. I had another miscarriage in 2010) into the world on July 28th, 2014.
I am realizing how quickly time is going by. How short our time is to raise these boys and show them what it means to love The Lord with all their heart, soul and mind.
So I stopped. I stopped blogging, I stopped painting, I stopped doing all these things that were taking time away from my boys.
I'm not saying it's forever. But right now this is where The Lord wants me.
Holding my children, loving my children and hopefully someday when they are grown and moving on then I will be able to look back and know that even though we didn't do everything perfect, we did the best that we could.